She screams....
As loud as she can and praying that the hurt will leave her heart quickly and painlessly.
She was vulnerable....again
Never sharing her body she shared more..
Her fears, her worries, her thoughts...her poetry..
And she screams..as tears of realization hit her and she sees that YES its happened again..
Her act of bravery...sticking up for her feelings she found out that
The sun who is she and the moon who is he could not eclipse because his orbit was around another planet...
And she screams...
And prays for her heart to remain soft as it tries to harden to protect itself.
She screams because she blames herself for feeling.....
And because she feels no anger and feels that she should...
The words
The simple kiss
The names of affection....
The conversation....
And only she fell....
As loud as she can she screams to prevent from crying because she can't hold in anymore...
She thought and felt different for once in a long time
And expressed this...
He let her....without saying a word of his truth.....
Vulnerable..she was.....
But still wishes him well....
But can't see the moon for the clouds...
She screams...
Experiencing every moment and feeling in order to tell....
She screams
As loud as she can praying that the hurt will leave her heart quickly and painlessly....
Because she never was in his
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Scream Heartache
Distant dreaming
Dreams of a distant past that I know nothing about attack my mind when I am most at peace.
Challenged, daily, with carrying out the vision at was so methodically planned out , I find myself lost in these dreams.
Not wanting to wake up to a declining society with no purpose or drive, I sleep....
And smile...
And I dream of distant instances when my black was a major offense and then I fall deeper...
Into a slumber where action for solutions came first
Instead of awake complacencies and oblivious dream catchers who know nothing of themselves, let alone their destinys.
As I ball up in the fetal position and get comfortable in my distant dream I soar through acts of unity and mutual understanding....no hesitations
Hoping that these dreams will materialize